Sorry for the delay...

OK, I know... I started this thing... and then... didn't make time for it.  See a pattern here friends?  I actually, totally love doing this!!!  I didn't think I would, and then I did... so why don't I make time for it?

Too busy?  (Ok... well yeah... but so what!!!)

Not enough to say? ( More like so much to say, but not sure where to start.)

I am not a priority?  ( BINGO!!! BINGO!!!  Can I get that ugly vase from the prize table?!?!?!)

I AM NOT A PRIORITY!!!! Oh my God... how did this happen?

It happened, because I ALLOWED it to!!!  Nobody made me a doormat, I ALLOWED myself to give up my time, my space, my knowledge to those who don't give two shits about me!!!  I have given my best efforts to people and things who just take and take and take and never acknowledge what they took.

Understand, I do NOT count my kiddo in this revelation.  The sacrifices for him have been well worth it even though there are times when he completely drives me out of my gourd.  Ben is a big ole blessing and those of you who know him, know that I am right about that.

No... I am talking about the other places where I have allowed myself to settle for less than what I want.  

I was talking to my friend tonight about the word WANT.  Nobody ever gets what they want simply because they WANT it!!!  You have to identify it and then go get it.  Sometimes it takes a lot of times to finally get it.  Sometimes you get something you didn't want, but you had to get it in order to learn what it was that you really wanted. Just WANTING IT IS NOT ENOUGH!!!

What do you want?

How will you get it?

Simple questions right?  Answers.... not so much.  When we get right down to it, we can all come up with things we want... its the getting it that is problematic.  So my challenge to myself and to you all is to think about what you want....but also think about how you are going to get it. 

I have started already. 

In my long absence, I decided that  I did not want to pay for a stupid storage shed that filled all my shit with fine powdery dust which is impossible to get rid of and that I would rather save the $81.00 per month and invest it towards and iPhone. (Look Farmville is a necessary evil... if you think otherwise... you aren't doing it right!!!)  So the parental unit and Bender and I moved all of that crap into the empty room in my house!!! Its ideal!!! It's free... it's certainly cleaner... but most important... IT FORCES ME TO LOOK AT IT EVERY TIME I GO DOWN THE HALLWAY.   

Honestly, I don't know how hoarders do it!!! It's driving me nuts.  I want all that crap gone, but I am afraid that I will throw out something important if I don't at least go through it and do a cursory review of the junk inside the boxes.  So... I am making myself spend 10 minutes going through crap.  Really PEOPLE!!! YOU HAVE 10 MINUTES!!!   YOU CAN DO ANYTHING FOR 10 MINUTES!!!  (Ok maybe I can't run down the street for 10 minutes, but I can definitely look in a box!!!)  So far, I have gotten rid of an entire box of clothes that do not fit, or do not fit properly, or that have been living inside a drawer, folded the exact same way for 15 years. This is no little box...it's a U-haul box, and there are more drawers!!!  Other items leaving my home... a popcorn popper (seriously? Who am I kidding? I will NEVER go buy popcorn that cannot fill my home with the smell of  popcorn from the microwave... doesn't it kinda smell like wet Cheerios?)... a box of vintage patterns ( very cool, but also in a microscopic size that I will never fit into... plus if I can't even blog regularly, I certainly am not going to bust out an outfit on a sewing machine, I'm just sayin...)... a shoebox full of ribbon ( Yep!!! RIBBON!!! I am so not kidding... what the hell was I thinking?  I am sure I was thinking that I would do something super artsy fartsy and that the craft show world was suddenly going to acknowledge my brilliance... don't judge me...you all tell yourselves lies too.) Also... one of those hideous lamps you get from Wal-Mart... you know the ones... they are usually black and have 4-separate lights on a pole.  They usually live in dorm rooms.... U-G-L-Y... but cheap and effective.  Unfortunately... they match nothing in a grown-up's house.  There are two hefty bags of pants Bender has outgrown...also 4 pairs of shoes and 2-3 pairs of wrestling shoes.  He grew so fast that they didn't even get messed up.  I could go on and on... the point is... there is forward movement.

Learning to make oneself a priority is not easy... it takes practice... Patience dear ones... I am not perfect, but I am starting to see the light!!!

Enough for tonight... Farmville awaits!!!